Burt's Bees

castles and spaceships,
hanging water molecules.
it's the same thing: clouds.

I have a lot going for me that I do not capitalize on and last night it felt good when I did take the opportunity to use something that has been in my face all along, which was in the form of joining a small group.
A lot has been going on lately in my own little world, which is expanding by the day, much like the formation of a new planet. In my internet escapades I have ventured across a lot of wonderful illustrated art, and this idea to sketch out stuff is so appealing yet at the same time I hate to see what I draw and then reflect on what I have seen. It stems from the same tree that does not like to read my own writing but there is a bipolar element to it because at the same time I selfishly think how absolutely awesome I am or what I am doing is extremely independent or something and the only way to counter that is to tell myself I'm not and it's not and there is no middle ground. "I've just got to get myself over me."
There are definitely unselfish aspects of my life and that is generally how I interact with people but I'm sure most people face this same conundrum because otherwise I'm not sure how many of us would have so many friends but who needs fakers anyways if they can't handle the truth they should exit. I really need to think more than I am.
Currently streaming WQXR, a New York based classical music station.