closetevilmastermind

I will keep walking
on the roads they keep paving.
will I enjoy it?

The answer is no, not always. The "they" in this can have many meanings. For me, it represents my parents and God. My parents want me to go to college (which coincides with what I want) and then there is the other plan of which I don't know too much about.
Debate on free will anyone? Just kidding. I choose not to go there. At least not this time. It's in the AM.
I'm a little anxious about leaving. I know that I'll be back in the area, but still. its quite symbolic in the area that I am now an independent (mostly) person because I am being bankrolled which sort of dictates what I do but not really but back to the point it feels weird that I won't be able to see certain people face to face so don't mind if I stare at faces this week i'm just trying to take everything in before diving into the pool and no it's not creepy considering the alternative is I just turn away and pretend I'm talking on a phone. It's actually polite to look people in the eye when talking with them. I have a tendency to look around which probably makes me look like a liar or something maybe a tweak not sure but I can get worked up around people and when I get in my car i just wonder wow why was I doing that i feel like I was very loud when in reality most people ask me to speak up because I mumble and kind of go on and on